These little things..

Don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.
I don't care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.
Just read this, it will make a difference.

If only everyone could see this and understand it.

When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummie cause she thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and dont let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Don't talk about other girls around her

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"

Be THAT Guy!

The BlackWalker ♥

I read this poem a looong time ago in a book I had.
It was by Christopher Pike -  'The Collect Call' ..So, There's this sexy mysterious guy..(Sorry, I forgot his name, Jack I guess ) and he gifts a cassette to a girl who likes him. The girl plays the rap (Listed below) , and gets into an accident with a friend. And the friend DIES!
Then, this guy..makes her re-live her own death. He creates a mirage for the friend, she wakes up..and sees the other girl burn to death. Later, She walkes into the hospital, and sees her body in the morgue. and Dies. AGAIN! Pleasing? xP

BlackWalker :
I come from the past,
I eat the night.
I knew you when you were young.
I'll tell you my story,
But I sleep with a gun.
This is my night, This is your night.
I'm a blackwalker guys
Touch me softly and you'll get a fright.
The stars are holes in the sky.
The moon's a thorn in the dark,
It drips white light
Give me the knife,
Let's cut out our eyes
Yeah, this is our night
This is what's right.
I'm a blackwalker guys,
Brush my lips and I'll bleed you white
I'm the BLACKWALKER

 Btw, I totallly love Mysterious guys. I wish I could catch hold of this BlackWalker. 

♥

New Moon :(

NEWMOONFINALLYOUT!


But not HERE!!!
And this is so damn irritating.
So frigging unfair :(
Its not out yet in the 7th largest country of the world with the 2nd largest population.
Don't they see how much their movie will work here? T_T
Why don't they release it here?
FTW!
Twilight has been released in India now. NOW!
1 year post its release date in the world.
:O
What is wrong with the audience?
I want to start a petition and send it to whatever-authorities-that-control-foreign-films-in-india.
I want NEW MOON.















BADLY.



Taylor Lautner ;shirtless.
I can't wait much longer.

Facebook Trick. It works

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IT ACTUALLY WORKSSSSSSSS xD

Why you won't see me online.. :P

OMIGOSH!
My first pre boards are here and my preparations are almost NIL.
So , So what? \,,/
I'm still rockstar.
xP


Lol, On a more serious note. I'm trynna cut down on my online time. T r y i n g.
So you guys will barely find me online except for after 12 A.M.
And now that I'm not sitting infront of the pc and wasting my precious hours <- Bwaha xD , I am wasting them infront of the \Idiot Box/
So there's not much preparation that's gonna happen even if I don't come online. Who studies until before the last hour? Pre boards begin 5th Dec. Duh! :( I wanted to go to Delhi and catch 'New Moon' since there are barely any chances of them releasing it in lucknow.
But I guess that'll have to wait. FuckIt! :(


Wish me luck guys! :P

So Silly \,,/

Random Incident :
I had a chappal hunt today xP
Gandharv went totally nuts and he took my oshos (just one) and ran and ran. And I was running behind him.. in one chappal xD And finally, he tossed it in the trees. WTF! :|

Random Dialogue for the day :
''Nirma Bora Bharat Choro''

Random song for the Day:
Mein baarish kardun paise ki..jo tu ho jaye meri ♥
Lmfao!
:D

Random Person for the Day :
Imaaaaaad, cuteheart who lives in srishti's building :D

Random bad thing :
Someone got committed with someone :|

Random time of the day :
P.Ed. Bwahaha. Failed effort to play Volleyball

Random Pic :
Clicked it in May when I got up for school. A storm had just passed last night..and look at the afterview

I heard this totally awesome track by Kelly Clarkson and I could relate to it so much.
♥
'Already Gone Video'
'Already Gone Lyrics' <- Link to the lyrics.

All I wanna do for tonight is Slit my Heart. 


The happiness is gone again. I think it's temporary this time. But it's awful like before.
I don't even know why. And I don't even care. I guess i'm just pretty sick of breathing. All I wanna do for now is smoke my insides out :(

.

Let go ;)

I finally reached a point in my life, where I've realised who matters, who never did, who won't anymore and who always will. :)

And I am happy again. Been a long long time since my heart actually smiled. :) 8 long months of feeling insignificant. The worst eight months of my life taught me the magic lesson :

I used to cut myself in these months. I indulged myself in the activities I swore I'd never even think about. doped. I smoked. I cried limitlessly and I didn't sleep the whole night. I had less than 12 hours sleep in 7 days. I was a clear mess. I'd be in the room still be absent from there. I ran away from every opportunity to narrate my problems to my friends. I quit talking to most of them. I played the past memories in my head over and over again, blaming my own self for every bad thing happening in his life. I cared too much. He didn't. I was forced to fake a smile everyday of my life.Kept repeating: My heart couldn't possibly have been broken..cause it wasn't even whole to start with. Everyone was always sympathising..asking what was wrong? I just didn't know..my heart just hurt. Your's would too probably if you had been ditched by the same person about 6 times. That was a pretty stoopid thing to do..but I really believed I could work it out.
I said : I love him
T O T A L L Y W R O N G B E L I E F S .

This is actually depressing me again, talking about this stuff :(


Anyway, after 8 months..came someone who made me realise that life didn't end here. He spent just some hours with me. And I was already flying. Thanks ♥
That person left the next day, but he was the silver lining of my stormy clouds. :)
I feel like I can't handle so much happiness.. I'm out of habit.

-♥-

Lane down the woods

Infinity ::

Its a strong word. I walk through it. Infinite woods of memories, I mean. Everything is here. Everyone is here. Each green leaf is a face..It's only in my mind. The dew drops are tears shed by heavily Kohl-ed eyes. The tears ran down my tanned skin leaving tearstains along my cheeks. These tearstains are my paths today. Looking so beautiful , splitting white light into its seven components.
Love. Hurt. Trust. Lies. Faith. Smiles. Loss. 
All that surrounds me is a mirage.. a mirage painted by the hands of a brokenheart. What If my heart had a face? Would it be wearing a mask of apathy too? This mask I sew. Glued onto my dermis. It formed the bark of my tree. It helped me get through everything and shoot up towards the light. I thought I saw a light ahead. So I grew further and up, until I was so far from others I couldn't see them . And then, It wasn't a light. It was the mist. Sticky. It clung to my skin.. making it hard for me to see.  I couldn't decipher plots . So I fell..straight on into muck. And I scraped my Heart. It hurts .. And it weeps, though it was a long time ago. My tears still fall as rain..and give nourishment to others below. Walking.. I reach the river of birth. From it I rose..and into it shall it return. I plunge into its  serene coldness . So blue all around me..blue calmness.My lungs are silently screaming. Why can't I break the silence that's breaking me?!

L-R : Ruby, Kiran, Ruby and Ines, Belle, Ines and Lou, Pranav, Shawn, Srishti, Ines and Lou, Srishti and Lou :)

Just felt like editing :)

♥

Srishti, are you doing Okay? :)

I'm trying to come up with something to put here since the last 40 mins.

Something which reflects my mood. (Which is actually bLUe. That's why my text is that color too)

:|

Basically, I'm in ruins :(

The pain has won over the pride..

My best friend is awfully upset .. She's been crying in the loo. But she won't talk to me about it.

I didn't even do anything.

My bwaby..It'll be okay .

Just throw up your arms ..and love until it reaches the sky ♥

:)

And I'll miss you when you're gone.. we have only 5 months left

Fuck. That's bullshit

God! This is so heartbreaking

Yet again, I lost my heart.

The students from Gandhi Memorial International School,Bali (in Thailand) arrived at lucknow on 25th Oct'09 . And I went up and met with Srishti's buddy, Lou Kim <33

She's french and supercool xD

And then we all went to the mall, and I met other buddies- Ines and Belle :)

All of them are so awesome.

But the worst part was, that they were staying for just 4 days.

They left today morning. 5:20 A.M. I went to the station at 4 A.M :(

And I met Kiran Schwaebe.

And I've never been this happy in the last 6 months. <3

Yesterday, you made my day. I had the time of my life

:)

I really wanted to be with you..We could've been so good but we had such less time.

I'm so so sorry you couldn't stay longer.

It's like when he left, It left a supermassive black hole in my heart.

& It just took 1 minute, and the sadness is back again.

I'llmissyouforever

take care.

♥

I'll see you again.

Tomorrow is my hindi test. 50 marks. Language. I don't know anything.

Yayyyyyyy! xD

Today, I was going through all my old pics..reminiscing. It just makes me mad, everything was fine then. :) :(

Remember when kissing was nasty..and the only thing boys gave you were cooties.

You were popular If you had a new toy, Not if you were a jerk.

When getting high meant swinging on the playground.

Your worst enemies were your little siblings.

People liked you if you were nice..not cool with comments

When wearing a skirt didn't make you a whore.

When a race issue was who was the fastest kid.

War was nothing but a card game.

If you talked to a boy, it didn't mean you like him.

When the only things that could be broken were toys and bones.

When the 'Ketchup Song' was the best song in the world.

When you actually liked studies and enjoyed maths.

When mommy was your hero and goodbye meant only till tomorrow.

When the only things that could be lost were barbie shoes and not your friendships or yourself.

Now here's the funny part - The only thing I remember is wanting to grow up!

.. :(

Today is S.H.I.T

Wrong.

Everyone's going through a rough patch. It's so so wrong.

It's like a storm of troubles just blew over the homes of my friends :(

Piyush Mehta. IMY

You are something to me.

That something who makes me laugh until my insides churn. Who got to know about my problems in the first chat we had. That person who'd send me a birthday gift from 1365 kms away. The one who makes me smile..even just for a while. You're my bubblecharm. I find my lost self in your company again. You're my comfort zone

Take care pweej.

Thing's will be fine. And no one forgot you. We all miss you dreadfully :(

Naina. Youareawesomejee. And Radhika, you too. And Kunal..Even though I don't know you guys that well..Y'all still matter to me.

And Srishti...I <33 you. Things at home will be fine again. Just be patient yar. I'llbewithyoualways

I am too busy to blog.

Coming online is a rare treat :)

Teecee people :|

I'll be back later..next year?! :P

After boards..

What I've been upto for soo long :P

I know it's been a while since I came up with something to put here.

But i've been alot alot BUSY with alot alot stuff lately.

For instance,

My exams ended..so i've been going for alot of outings.

And accidentally, alot of my pals turn out to be virgos/librans [including my own self] ..so i've been attending alot of parties ^_^

<---- These pictures are of my birthday celebrations.. when we went to Marine Drive

And then Eid celebrationssss at my place \,,/

And so, i'll catch you guys online later..

Cya...

P.S--> Piyush sent me a BFMV tee. I so LOVE him <3

Just a random thought..

So i just had this random thought , the type that enters and exits your mind so fast..it tangles you up.

it goes like this ::

who is beside me? deep within? in this moment?

what's living in me..consuming me and using up all my energy soo fast it b-r-e-a-k-s me. it tears me a p a r t whenever i wake up.

when will i wake up? i had slept to sleep in peace, for eternal bliss.

is this IT?

no it can't be..it pricks me. my conscience.. scratched and worn away.

it's like my soul has eroded. bits of me..living && breathing are being strangled?

by whom?

It's just in my mind. All of it

E.r.a.s.e

m.y.s.e.l.f..

A.d.i.u.e

Diary for 14th september, 2009

Okay. so yeah. exactly one week's over.

and so are my exams!

I.T.S P.A.R.T.Y T.I.M.E P.E.O.P.L.E

&& i found this poem in one of the chicken soup books-

PRACTICAL APPLICATION

He's teaching her arithmetic'

he said its his mission

he kissed her once, he kissed her twice and said,

"Now that's addition"

And as he added smack by smack

In silent satisfaction,

She sweetly gave the kisses back and said,

"Now that's subtraction"

Then he kissed her, she kissed him,

Without an explantaion,

And both togther smiled and said

"That's multiplication"

Then dad appeared on the scene and

Made a quick decision.

He kicked that kid three blocks away

And said " That's long division"

:D

diary for 13th, Sept, 2009

2:30 pm -

I slept late...yeah. Still sooo sleepy...

z_Z

I can barely keep my eyes open

8:28 pm -

I have hindi exam tomorrow. Starting revision now... :D

Mom " offo...tumhara aage kya hoga? "

Ans-> If i could really see the future, i would have told you ages ago :|

('',) Hahaa ha ha ha haa (shinchan ♥ style)

Byyeeee \/

3:30 am : okay. enough..i didnt start hindi @ 8:30 . i fell asleep. and now i have to stay awake to study HINDI. datz really pathetic :(

4 am : hindi finally done. Whew! gotta catch sum sleeeeep

zzzzzzzzz [ fell asleep on d keyboard]

Diary for 12th september, 2009

*Grettings* to all

Wha-a-a--tt a looooong day indeed.

Had my science paper today :| ( it went well..don't cha worry. except that i screwed two of the easiest questions of all times :( tsk tsk. )

&& I spent the rest of the day watching some portion of house of wax..and \Coyote Ugly/

And did i mention that I've completely fallen for Adam Garcia ♥

And as for the rest of the evening? Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeping and blogggggggggggggging.

What a tiring day :D :D :D

My plans for tomorrow are : 1. sleeeping late 2. studying hindi 3.hogging on fooooooooood 4. studying hindi again 5.fone fone fone (Call me) 6.Goin' out 7. Studyin hindi till late

Now let's see how many work out.. :P Any suggestions for changes in this boring schedule are always welcome =]

Random Incident :: Srishti [my bff] was allowed to come to my place after like- 2 months :) && Tarunika Rajesh actually CONFESSED that she likes talking to Srishti. Wowness! xD

Random Song for the day :: ♫ 'Can't fight the moonlight' - 'LeAnn Rimes' ♪

Peace befall all \/

-When numbness dawns-

How do you do this to me?

- Make me brittle like glass..?

- Shatter me like a mirror..?

- Make my heart ache..?

Maybe you are not doing this on purpose.?!

But I cant even listen to your voice anymore..

I flinch at the sight of you.

But I hope you understand,

I'm not mad at you..

I'm just more careful with myself now

You plead and beg me to listen,

But I refuse to

I cant support you now,

Anyone else now.

I'm gonna support myself!

Call me selfish. But that's what i picked up-

from you. from everyone else..

You start reminding me of my promises.

the friendship that was meant to last..

but i can remind you of a hundred things--

you never even cared about after promising.

So Why can't i do the same?

And please, Please.

Don't stay with me...don't stay for me.

let me walk a.l.o.n.e

Lemme learn my lessons the hard way,

Suffer for my mistakes..

Don't reach out to wipe the tears,

They dry fast..

You promise to care,

Not to make me suffer!

But how can that be...?

When you are the one making me suffer.

Now,

I ask you to leave.

Plead.

Request.

Beg.

It was nice having you for a while..

---

Me, Myself And I..

About My.self-->

Everything I'm not..Has made me everything I AM :)

Hey everyone, this is Anila Junaid writing..

and i'd like to share a peice of my mind with all of you..

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This was my life, This was a flower , It wilts, This life I built, A dozen red roses wilt up and die,I curl my body into a ball, A lifeless form, Torn between Heaven and Hell, I'm higher than a mountian,My petals stretched out,My arms fall off, My life trimmed short, The red taken from me, I wilt

up and die, Once a healthy grown seed,I'm returned to the earth, I curl my body into a ball,Dead and Buried, I'm torn betweeb Heaven and Hell.

I slashed my wrist, Gave the knife a final twist, In a search for inner peace,Some sort of release, I am a born again nihilist, I don’t need you to be my apologist, Pump a toxic substance into my vein, To try and release the pain, You can call it self-abuse, Or just another excuse, To avoid facing up to reality, That’s just my mentality, I am into self-denial, I cough up phlegm and bile, I am going to try starvation, In the hope of salvation.

Death, feared by most, Loved by others, but how do you fear something you know nothing about? or is it not knowing that scares people? I sit in my room questioning life, wishing for death. A rayzor lays in my hand hungry for blood, I press its edge into my skin then with one quick slice the blood begins to flow , again and again I let the rayzor fly, till the blood runs down my arm like a rushing river, The color is so beautiful, The pain in full of pleasure, I feel my body slowly weakening, As my life poors from the open cute, In this moment I belong.

Love

♥