What I've been upto for soo long :P

I know it's been a while since I came up with something to put here.

But i've been alot alot BUSY with alot alot stuff lately.

For instance,

My exams ended..so i've been going for alot of outings.

And accidentally, alot of my pals turn out to be virgos/librans [including my own self] ..so i've been attending alot of parties ^_^

<---- These pictures are of my birthday celebrations.. when we went to Marine Drive

And then Eid celebrationssss at my place \,,/

And so, i'll catch you guys online later..

Cya...

P.S--> Piyush sent me a BFMV tee. I so LOVE him <3

Just a random thought..

So i just had this random thought , the type that enters and exits your mind so fast..it tangles you up.

it goes like this ::

who is beside me? deep within? in this moment?

what's living in me..consuming me and using up all my energy soo fast it b-r-e-a-k-s me. it tears me a p a r t whenever i wake up.

when will i wake up? i had slept to sleep in peace, for eternal bliss.

is this IT?

no it can't be..it pricks me. my conscience.. scratched and worn away.

it's like my soul has eroded. bits of me..living && breathing are being strangled?

by whom?

It's just in my mind. All of it

E.r.a.s.e

m.y.s.e.l.f..

A.d.i.u.e

Diary for 14th september, 2009

Okay. so yeah. exactly one week's over.

and so are my exams!

I.T.S P.A.R.T.Y T.I.M.E P.E.O.P.L.E

&& i found this poem in one of the chicken soup books-

PRACTICAL APPLICATION

He's teaching her arithmetic'

he said its his mission

he kissed her once, he kissed her twice and said,

"Now that's addition"

And as he added smack by smack

In silent satisfaction,

She sweetly gave the kisses back and said,

"Now that's subtraction"

Then he kissed her, she kissed him,

Without an explantaion,

And both togther smiled and said

"That's multiplication"

Then dad appeared on the scene and

Made a quick decision.

He kicked that kid three blocks away

And said " That's long division"

:D

diary for 13th, Sept, 2009

2:30 pm -

I slept late...yeah. Still sooo sleepy...

z_Z

I can barely keep my eyes open

8:28 pm -

I have hindi exam tomorrow. Starting revision now... :D

Mom " offo...tumhara aage kya hoga? "

Ans-> If i could really see the future, i would have told you ages ago :|

('',) Hahaa ha ha ha haa (shinchan ♥ style)

Byyeeee \/

3:30 am : okay. enough..i didnt start hindi @ 8:30 . i fell asleep. and now i have to stay awake to study HINDI. datz really pathetic :(

4 am : hindi finally done. Whew! gotta catch sum sleeeeep

zzzzzzzzz [ fell asleep on d keyboard]

Diary for 12th september, 2009

*Grettings* to all

Wha-a-a--tt a looooong day indeed.

Had my science paper today :| ( it went well..don't cha worry. except that i screwed two of the easiest questions of all times :( tsk tsk. )

&& I spent the rest of the day watching some portion of house of wax..and \Coyote Ugly/

And did i mention that I've completely fallen for Adam Garcia ♥

And as for the rest of the evening? Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeping and blogggggggggggggging.

What a tiring day :D :D :D

My plans for tomorrow are : 1. sleeeping late 2. studying hindi 3.hogging on fooooooooood 4. studying hindi again 5.fone fone fone (Call me) 6.Goin' out 7. Studyin hindi till late

Now let's see how many work out.. :P Any suggestions for changes in this boring schedule are always welcome =]

Random Incident :: Srishti [my bff] was allowed to come to my place after like- 2 months :) && Tarunika Rajesh actually CONFESSED that she likes talking to Srishti. Wowness! xD

Random Song for the day :: ♫ 'Can't fight the moonlight' - 'LeAnn Rimes' ♪

Peace befall all \/

-When numbness dawns-

How do you do this to me?

- Make me brittle like glass..?

- Shatter me like a mirror..?

- Make my heart ache..?

Maybe you are not doing this on purpose.?!

But I cant even listen to your voice anymore..

I flinch at the sight of you.

But I hope you understand,

I'm not mad at you..

I'm just more careful with myself now

You plead and beg me to listen,

But I refuse to

I cant support you now,

Anyone else now.

I'm gonna support myself!

Call me selfish. But that's what i picked up-

from you. from everyone else..

You start reminding me of my promises.

the friendship that was meant to last..

but i can remind you of a hundred things--

you never even cared about after promising.

So Why can't i do the same?

And please, Please.

Don't stay with me...don't stay for me.

let me walk a.l.o.n.e

Lemme learn my lessons the hard way,

Suffer for my mistakes..

Don't reach out to wipe the tears,

They dry fast..

You promise to care,

Not to make me suffer!

But how can that be...?

When you are the one making me suffer.

Now,

I ask you to leave.

Plead.

Request.

Beg.

It was nice having you for a while..

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Me, Myself And I..

About My.self-->

Everything I'm not..Has made me everything I AM :)

Hey everyone, this is Anila Junaid writing..

and i'd like to share a peice of my mind with all of you..

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This was my life, This was a flower , It wilts, This life I built, A dozen red roses wilt up and die,I curl my body into a ball, A lifeless form, Torn between Heaven and Hell, I'm higher than a mountian,My petals stretched out,My arms fall off, My life trimmed short, The red taken from me, I wilt

up and die, Once a healthy grown seed,I'm returned to the earth, I curl my body into a ball,Dead and Buried, I'm torn betweeb Heaven and Hell.

I slashed my wrist, Gave the knife a final twist, In a search for inner peace,Some sort of release, I am a born again nihilist, I don’t need you to be my apologist, Pump a toxic substance into my vein, To try and release the pain, You can call it self-abuse, Or just another excuse, To avoid facing up to reality, That’s just my mentality, I am into self-denial, I cough up phlegm and bile, I am going to try starvation, In the hope of salvation.

Death, feared by most, Loved by others, but how do you fear something you know nothing about? or is it not knowing that scares people? I sit in my room questioning life, wishing for death. A rayzor lays in my hand hungry for blood, I press its edge into my skin then with one quick slice the blood begins to flow , again and again I let the rayzor fly, till the blood runs down my arm like a rushing river, The color is so beautiful, The pain in full of pleasure, I feel my body slowly weakening, As my life poors from the open cute, In this moment I belong.

Love

♥