LongLong time since my last post.
Hello everyone,
Happy New Year...All the best for the new year!!
So its basically 3:24 AM in here. My sisters are sleeping restlessly next to me...and I feel totally nauseated and choked up! As usual :)
I want somebody to talk to...BADLY! Vasvi, my baby...She's the only person I can find sitting online at 5 AM consoling me. I don't know what triggered this..But the last two days have been washed away in tears.
I thought I had healed and my past was over and done with. So so wrong.
I'm not even sure now that I can ever overcome it. Push it to the back of my mind - well yes. But push it outta my mind - HeckNo! Otherwise I would've done it months ago and saved myself all the regret.
The most painful part about making mistakes is that..even if there were two of you involved, only you are remembered and the other escapes with all the sympathy. Thats like so unfair.
While I'm sitting here crying over something I did months ago..the other person is sound asleep in his bed, dreaming of all the nasty ways he has destroyed me.
How would you feel if a person sews your heart break, and snips the bandages?
Signing off now. Going to pray for a maniac killer to come up my balcony today and slit my throat.
:)
Keep Smiling*
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